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A few years back, aware of the pain and confusion in the world and that we needed to move in a new direction since the clock was ticking, I asked ~Charley for information on what could I do? This led to the awareness that there are people in this world, with more to come whose major purpose in this lifetime is to function as conduits to focus our collectively expressed love energy.
At the time I identified 28 people worldwide and placed their location on maps.
I diligently practiced the meditation but after a couple of years was doing it half-heartedly as other projects took my focus.
In hindsight, I realized that the timing wasn’t right.
Today Humanity on this Earth is moving through a cosmic transition. A new window is opening to facilitate an expansion of human consciousness which will be fully active by the 5th of January 2025. And like a new dawn rising over the horizon, the first cosmic emanations to evaporate the mist that clouds our minds will reach us around July 2024.
I had one insistent friend who continued to express her interest in the meditation and was eager for the update I had promised a few years back. Well, I finally took the plunge and created the update with a new version of the meditation which you will find below.
When I first worked out who were the empaths I made a mistake with the gender of one of the empaths. I had assumed that the one in Scotland was a male. I was mistaken so the initial map will show a male in the Fife area.
I have updated the map here it is on the left and it shows a female, apart from that nothing else has changed except one new empath has come online in Madagascar.
This podcast has the meditation at the end at 19:40minutes I show the whole podcast because in my opinion there is interesting extra information included, but lower down you will see the meditation on its own which is not very long. and once you get the hang of it you can do it anywhere in a few minutes if you have to.
I will update the information on this world map as new empaths come online the next one will take approx. 1 1/2 years. Whichever country you are from you will be able to add to your World Meditation and the UK, any empaths who are near your locality if you so choose.
Right now the NWO and all the other puppets are attempting to bring the whole world under its yokel. What they don’t realize is that the world WILL join together, but NOT under the dark umbrella of inner slavery.
You have no idea as yet of the collective power we have to alter the world around us. Add your love to ours, a few minutes a day and our light will begin the transformation of our collective societies as we free ourselves of the darkness inside each of us.
UPDATE: In the podcast, I mention the cosmic window that will open in January 2025 to facilitate waking up to ourselves what I didn’t mention and have just found out on 19/3/2024 is that this window will close once more in just under 15 years time. That is how long we have to raise our collective love energy vibration to make it self-sustaining in spite of external forces, to continue to aid those who have the potential to integrate with their hearts beyond the 15-year deadline.
Present-day culture is ruled by mental bureaucratic principles. For many years now, the mental construct of avoidance of generating ANY emotional distress on another human being, under penalty of loss of personal liberty, has also taken hold in our societies and courts of law.
In an argument, if someone raises their voice in adrenal fuelled excitement it is perceived as threatening. In the Victorian era the concept of a `stiff upper lip’, `hold yourself together,’ and ‘you mustn’t cry’, all alluded to the same perception that the display of emotion was unseemly and probably demeaning.
Humanity has had a rough ride when it comes to the experience and display of emotions. All of the above have an underlying assumption. That the experience and display of emotions will, by the nature of its pain somehow weaken/incapacitate us.
There are many examples in films of the ‘coward’ who is paralysed with fear and its opposite, the ‘fearless’ hero. Shame we are not exposed more to the human who IS afraid, yet ‘does it anyway’.
In this article I would like to explore the issue of emotional intensity, our phobic avoidance of it, and its importance in overall psychic health. Lastly, I hope to provide some pointers to aid you in regaining the source of your true power.
Ego
I will start with the concept of ego for it is intrinsic to the understanding of our emotional world. I describe ego as the overall biological construct that is a human being, composed of three centres or brains, without which, we could not hope to have self-awareness.
The reason why so many humans lack self-awareness through large parts of their daily experience invariably comes down to one of the centres going offline.
The overall function of the biological ego is to help us navigate and survive our sojourn through life. This requires a competent and strong anatomy (physical), a messaging system to prepare and activate the physical body for action (emotional) and a mental capacity based on previous experiences to judge the most expedient action for our survival.
Human beings could be separated into three major categories depending on which of the 3 centres a large part of their awareness resides: physical, emotional and mental, with a lesser amount of focus/awareness on one of the other two centres. Invariably the mind is the most active. I have met many whose secondary centre is the emotional and yet although they are at the mercy of their emotional experiences are nevertheless, quite disconnected from some of their emotions.
The power of the mind to suppress our awareness of certain emotions is the primary cause of our unhappy lives and the source of internal conflicts that are replicated in our experiences in the world.
Fear
`Emotions’ is a word that describes a complex set of sequences within our bodies, that via hormonal secretions will energise our muscles into an appropriate course of action. In its purest form that immediate hormonal release has a word too – FEAR.
Fear is the primary ego motivation for human activity. It is a rich seam that has and is being mined endlessly by those who would enslave us. Ask any newspaper hack and he/she will tell you “fear sells”. Look no further than the last alleged pandemic and the braying of the mob to metaphorically speaking ‘lynch’ all those that would not conform.
And here we have a chicken and egg situation. Fear induces us to have mental rigidity, to hang on to the familiar, whereas ‘letting go’ opens the possibility of freedom. Fear is the primary tool of our minds to suppress emotional expression, in its attempt to keep us safe within a group/society by non-questioning and conforming to prevailing attitudes and beliefs.
Mental rigidity versus letting go
It is difficult to speak about any one centre of a human being in isolation because it is their interconnectedness or lack of that defines us.
The mind/brain has many functions but we will limit ourselves for now to its computer-like capacity to be programmed. These programmes, acquired by osmosis as well as pure indoctrination through our early years, have a huge power of control over a human being. This is outwardly reflected in the power of the State over the average citizen.
Fear is how our minds control us as individuals and fear is how the state manipulates us, and it is our fears that rigidify our thinking processes, suppress our emotions and physically create awkwardness in us. Fear is the emotion that our minds tap into, that we may conform to the group, and stops us from thinking outside of our self-imposed programming.
I wrote self-imposed because whilst the initial programming may have come from outside us, we, in a state of perpetual motion keep the programming alive via fear.
Physiologically we maintain the rigidity via our abdominal muscles, restricting the inflow of air in our lungs and the movement of the organs within our abdomen. Hence the importance of learning to ‘let go’ and breathe properly at the physical level. This is a pre-requisite to emotional letting go.
Depression
Depression is the ultimate mental dis-empowering of emotion, without opposite within the ego, it will sap all your emotional energy. What is important to appreciate is that there are only two possible states within humans Fear- an egocentric need for survival (me), or Love whose focus begins with our ego and then extends to our environment. (us)
“Yes, but I feel?” Emotional confusion
What do you mean you feel? Emotions are not feelings. This confusion arises because we are so disconnected in our three centres we can’t see the wood for the trees, and our languages reflect this lack of self-awareness.
Emotions are the interaction of hormonal activity within our physical structure and these can be sensed by people’s bodily activity and postures. Also because they generate an electrical flow emotions can be picked up by others in our environment. Feelings are beyond ego, they are activated by our soul fragments, resonate within our hearts, and can be felt by the soul fragments within other human beings. But let’s stay with ego for now.
Fear as the primary motivation for action is a very healthy emotion it is meant to be transitory, not continuous. Our emotions are not the problem, the problem is our indoctrinated minds, rigidifying our responses and interfering with the other two centres. Who doesn’t remember being awkward whilst dancing in our youth? Our first-ever kiss? Or walking into a new place alone, a stranger, to a crowd of people that all appear to know each other?
Our minds as a result of pre-programmes attempt to protect us from emotional intensity, in a similar vein to what the ‘woke culture’ does for ‘flaky ‘ university students.
Emotional black holes
One of my children when he was 3 ½ had a younger brother. I admit with deep regret that at the time, through my own psychological /emotional pain my focus had been on my firstborn, who already was a few years older, and from a separate mother. Whilst I was still mopping over the loss of my first, I neglected, to my complete and subsequent regret, to give my 3 ½ years-old my undivided attention for the first couple of years of his life.
My 3 ½ years old was racked with obvious and at times, close to vicious jealousy for a few years, after which it became suppressed, but always there. He started to have nightmares. He was around 5 years old by now. At the heart of his nightmares was a pair of very large eyes.
There was a film for kids/grown-ups at the time – E.T. in which the alien character had a pair of very large rounded eyes to make him look more like a baby, hence adorable. It was this very image that was at the heart of his regular nightmares.
Today as a fully grown man that envy/jealousy will more than likely still be there in the background, pulling some of his strings until he has enough internal resources to experience that lack of childhood security, that lack of love from his father for which he blamed his younger sibling.
We all develop an emotional black hole within our psyches as part of growing up. This is in part why we are so easily manipulated, why we move with the herd, and why we are so desperate to be loved, and accepted.
In many ways, we are like dogs who are maltreated, sometimes brutally, yet the dog comes back for more, where else is it going to go? Where is its independent spirit? All it knows is to be part of the pack, grateful for any scraps that come its way.
Depressing isn’t it? Over 50%? of the world population went like lambs to the slaughter a few years back and even insisted that those who didn’t follow the herd should either be forced, imprisoned, or isolated.
We are collectively messed up! We carry so much pain we don’t even know how to let it go. We are desperate for others to fill our black hole with their love and attention.
Yeah, well, the thing about a ‘theoretical’ black hole is that it all goes in, it’s never enough, and very little gets out.
Emotions and Relationships
In the last article, I approached our collective dilemmas from the perspective of our physical body, it has really good pointers about supporting ourselves emotionally from the physical side of things.
Here we will explore how to understand and begin a process of emotional release. Understand that “releasing” is another word for letting go. And we don’t let go because -we are afraid.
In Spanish, there is a saying “Better the devil you know than the one you have yet to find out”. That’s the thing about ego, it only sees itself, and its experience of the world is through fear-tinted eyeglasses.
Rage
There are effective emotions and then there are disempowering emotions. For example, rage is a disempowering emotion fuelled by fear, whereas anger is an ego-empowering emotion, fuelled by a determination to go the whole hog, to the bitter end, to death if necessary.
Example:
Let’s say you are unfairly accused at work, or elsewhere, etc., This may trigger previous hurts in your life, barely registering in your awareness, instead, you experience a bit of rage and you hold it in. You now go home to your partner, who says something and you respond with a snarky and hurtful comment that triggers your partner, who may either experience the pang of unfairness and keep their mouth shut, or, be reactive, triggering their rage in turn, and now you have recriminations and a slagging match!
The above scenario is fairly common, and the first victim once home, with the punishing expression of the snarky comment will instantly be much more relaxed now that they have managed to pass the hot potato (hurt) to the partner!
Next time you are unfairly accused and triggered into a rage with someone, imagine the rage has been thrown at you like a hot potato and you have instinctively caught it with your hand. Clench your hand tight this is the hot potato! Now open it and drop the imaginary hot potato. Breathe into your lower abdomen. Connect with and share your hurt and unfairness instead. Simultaneously connect with your anger and draw a line in the sand for your partner, unfair accusations/ behaviour are completely unacceptable!
We experience rage because we don’t value ourselves. We experience anger because we DO! and are willing to defend our integrity.
When we live for other people, are aware of their needs to the exclusion of our own, always understanding them, and making excuses for their egocentric behaviour. This is NOT love, a better word is dependency based on fear and a lack of self-worth. This personality pattern although not exclusive to women is more common with them.
TRUE love ALWAYS begins with oneself. It is a flexibility of moving between my affection for another and myself, their needs do not trump mine, any more than my needs trump theirs.
Emotions and personal growth
Presently there are many of us and the numbers are growing, who are able to connect, at least sporadically, with all the 3 centres simultaneously and as a result of this, we are gradually gaining an understanding of ourselves and our environment. Let’s assume that we no longer lie to ourselves or others. How can we let go of that which is out of our awareness?
The answer of course is we can’t. We have to skim the surface and work with what is available to us. And I assure you, once we have committed to personal growth the opportunities for freeing ourselves will come thick and fast.
The reality is that our subconscious is forever doing its best to iron out the kinks in our psyches. As a result of which, it replays the internal conflicts externally. The problem is we didn’t know how to listen before!
Full moon
All our relationships with other people whether at home with family, at work, social interactions, chance meetings with strangers, and/or, the bureaucratic stranglehold over all of our lives are rich seams telling us about our unresolved conflicts.
Take particular note of full moons one week before up to the day before the full Moon and new moons 3 days before and including the new Moon day itself. You will start to notice how dramas/ accidents can easily occur.
From now on you will notice when you have been emotionally triggered because your mind (words in your head) will get very busy. You need to be able to separate your awareness from the thoughts in your head –they are not YOU!
Ask yourself – what emotion am I experiencing right now? These words in my head what are they distracting me from?- Here is where you let go of your tummy muscles and allow yourself deep breaths all the way down into your lower abdomen. Practice makes easy, emotions MUST flow.
I would like to point out the difference between crocodile tears and sincere expressions of emotional release tears. With the first, there is no internal emotional letting go. They are more aligned with some kind of frustration, and breathing will likely remain shallow.
With the second you are more likely to have hot tears from emotional release and your breathing will be deep all the way down to your lower abdomen.
Birth Chart
All the dramas in your external world are magnified shadows of your internal conflicts seeking healing and resolution. To the extent that we don’t, they are regurgitated with different characters at a later stage of one’s life. On average these major events will be replayed 4 times throughout one’s life at the rhythm of the planets of our solar system in relation to the time of our birth.
Most of the big unexpressed traumas in our lives have their origin in previous lifetimes and are brought into this one seeking re-integration within our fractured souls.
Strong Emotional emanations are contagious, they are energetic outbursts that affect all humans and animals around the source. A strong emotion of anger will make others hesitate, and a strong emotional outburst of rage will either frighten, give rise to anger, and/or generate reciprocal rage in others.
We need to experience emotions fully preferably as they arise, the problem is that some emotions are too intense and would lead to blowing an internal protective fuse. Fortunately, we can work our way in slowly, and regularly, by opening ourselves up to emotional experiences.
Emotional intensity- Physical intensity
Emotional and physical intensity go together, it is our birthright to experience pain and emotions intensely without blowing a fuse and yet we do! I am not suggesting torture or sado masochism.
When you accidentally hurt yourself physically pause and experience the intensity of the physical pain in its location for as long as you can bear it. This will not just increase your stamina to physical discomfort it will also alert your brain that you have damaged yourself and repairs will be initiated. . often people disassociate from the physical pain, and the physical tissue trauma will remain for years.
We can see this with children who hurt themselves, they holler as a means of disassociating from the intensity of the pain and grown-ups are not much better by distracting them, if we were to teach them whilst young by encouraging them to focus lovingly on the pain, they would grow up more balanced.
Emotions need to flow but our minds disconnect us from some of them, judging them to be too intense for us to function effectively. As with the physical, we disassociate ourselves from the emotion(s) This process almost at the instinctive level seals the electrical/chemical flow within our nervous system, and all we will at some stage become aware of is muscular pain from the muscle spasm.
Emotional suppression for extremely short periods has its uses as a survival tactic. Otherwise, it either weakens our self-worth or facilitates sociopathic and psychopathic behaviour.
This article is already long but let me just add that emotions are biological in origin and as such are affected by the glands and internal organs. This means that by eating crap food that includes items like sugar, colourings, drugs of any sort pharmaceutical or recreational, preservatives, and too much salt we can overheat /block the liver = rage, kidneys = fear, Small intestines= inability to discern what is good for us etc.
The moral of the story is, that if we wish to be emotionally balanced, quite apart from clearing the decks mentally and emotionally, we need to keep our food and drink pure of any chemicals, or man-made poisons.
Meditation
Do this exercise regularly to help you engage with your emotions.
I often go on about metabolic syndromes and how they are behind 95 % of human and pet illnesses (because they feed them the same manufactured products the humans eat).
But there is another source of suffering in human beings that for most doesn’t rise to the level of disease. This form of suffering in the relatively affluent West has reached epidemic proportions. I am referring to acute as well as chronic muscle spasms, for which, in desperation we invariably reach out to masseurs, osteopaths, chiropractors, acupuncturists, etc., hoping to be ‘fixed’ from our ailments.
Unfortunately, some will go to their doctors for painkillers, steroids, muscle relaxants, and, if truly unlucky a surgeon.
The Western approach to muscle tension is invariably pharmaceutical even the Eastern approach doesn’t fare much better. Because the underlying problem with tensions is that they are the result of emotional suppression and what is suppressed doesn’t go away just because it is out of sight.
It is my aim in this article to offer you both an understanding of the process and to empower you to apply an effective remedy.
Acute versus chronic muscle spasm pains
Emotions need to flow through us, we all have a few emotions that were considered unacceptable as we grew up, and we became adept at suppressing them. Those suppressed emotions begin to distort our anatomy because our skeletons are only upright and mechanically balanced due to opposing muscular forces.
Deep and superficial fascia around muscles
The subsequent slow yet increasing distortions have meant that our skeleton bones have rearranged around the structural instabilities.
All muscles are surrounded by fascia, this tissue is sponge-like, flexible, elastic, and as a result of regular muscle movement -well-hydrated. When a muscle stays in spasm for any length of time, the fascia, due to lack of movement dries up, and even though the muscle spasm might release, this bunched-up dehydrated fascia maintains the structural misalignment.
So our primary focus in this article will be on Acute pains because for chronically seized fascia you will need a bodyworker who understands myofascial release or, be extremely adept with yoga asanas.
The emotional side of the equation
All muscle spasms begin with an unexpressed emotion. Something or (someone) in our environment will trigger the emotion, it could even be an association that generates an image for even a fraction of a second within our brains. There will be a well-trodden path from childhood to the present whereby specific emotions are blocked as soon as they arise triggering spasms in specific parts of the body
The suppressed emotion will start to express itself in us, invariably this will be so quick that as it begins to activate our hormonal system, our minds will suppress the image and contain the muscular expression that would have been associated with that emotion.
Other times it might be a slow progression like say you are in debt and the bills come through the door, you have that moment of panic, and anxiety, gradually over a little period the accumulated muscular suppression leads to your back quickly debilitating your movements, as people say “my back has gone”.
By its very nature, we can only put the dots back together when the muscular pain or tension begins to impinge in our awareness. As soon as this happens we need to sit down and think back over the preceding few days and sleuth down that primary emotion.
It will take a few events like this before you truly accept the relationship between your emotions and physical pain. It is really important to connect the dots and to realize that, muscular pains not related to food or injury, are always the after-effect of a strong emotion that has been suppressed inside us.
Suppressed grief and muscular tension
R.I.P
Apart from my own numerous experiences, I have one particularly poignant one from my wife that occurred many years back, about a good friend of hers (B) who loved her like a daughter and died quite unexpectedly.
My wife is a complete and utter animal lover and we are only together because I occasionally `woof’ and she forgets I am human. `J’s` grief and sadness has haunted her for most of her formative years, due in part to her numerous and varied pets having relatively short lives.
After the death of her mother-like figure `B’, I experienced my wife going from bad to worse with excruciating muscular symptoms and lack of energy. After about 3 weeks of this, whilst walking, I shared my concerns and observations. Namely, she couldn’t accept her loss of ‘B’s’ death, this meant she was avoiding the intensity of her grief and her muscles were seizing up.
‘B’ had in her time, been a wonderful surrogate mother to my wife. Now in her old age those closest to her had died. and she hoped to soon be reunited with them. ‘B’s’ health was not good and was racked in physical pain. Unexpectedly, a fire at her home had given her a quick, merciful, unconscious, and suffocating death.
The ((((((remedy)))))) for my wife included being grateful for her friendship and mothering whilst ‘B’ was alive and now to “let her go” and be pleased for her. Her time was done and she had been spared further pain and misery. By focusing on what was good for ‘B’ rather than her egocentric loss she was finally able to fully release her grief. Her pains miraculously disappeared and her energy returned.
What we can take away from that story is that most of our pains are self-induced, due to internal ego conflicts. And the resolution is invariably detaching from our egos by connecting with our hearts. Yea, I know, easier said than done!
How to help ourselves with acute muscle spasm episodes
Unless you have been trained to be in your body you may not have full access to it, but that is ok, so long as you have at least partial access, for example, look at either of your hands. Now place your awareness inside it and sense the sensations in each finger and thumb. You might notice it is not easy to stay there, that, is the pull of your mind trying to be in control.
There will be parts of your body easily accessible and others that are out of bounds. In theory, since nerves and fascia reach most parts of your anatomy then the majority of your body should be accessible. Many of the accessible parts of the anatomy are not, because emotions are stashed away there.
I will be providing an active meditational exercise at the end but for now, I would like to share with you how the process of liberating yourself from acute muscle spasms works.
All the muscles in our bodies operate in opposing pairs which send signals to our brains saying “I am contracting/ relaxing”. The impulse to contract the opposing muscles to regain muscular balance originates in the brain and are transmitted via nerve impulses.
If you put something smelly in front of your nose you will lose the scent after about 10 seconds. What happened? The brain switched off the signal. The smell is now part of the background noise.
Something similar happens with muscle spasms. on the one hand, your emotions activate a muscle sequence to contract, Your mind at the level of the subconscious interferes, you disconnect from the emotion and go off all wordy into your head. The hormonal release continues but is going nowhere, the brain sends a signal for the opposing muscle to contract to release the initial muscular contraction.
back pain
The out-of-awareness emotion continues to trigger muscular contraction. After a little while the signal telling the brain “I am contracting” becomes background noise, and we are left with a muscle in a state of spasm, a brain that has stopped listening or sending signals to the opposing muscles. and a dawning awareness that we are in pain in our bodies.
In the following active meditation I will be encouraging you to connect fully with your acute pain, this will send a signal to your brain that the muscle(s) in spasm is/are foreground action rather than background static.
As you succeed in connecting fully with your physical pain you are telling your brain which stopped listening sometime back “This muscle is contracted” Your brain will then send a signal to the opposing muscle(s) to reinstate balance between them. It is quite common to go into a bit of a daydream as the process begins, and when done the muscle tension will have gone.
That’s the theory, of course, and with practice it will become a reality. There was a time when I lived a stressful life and I could turn acute muscular tension around within a couple of hours.
In practice, you will need to do the (below) active meditation quite a few times till you become adept at placing your consciousness in your body.
I would like to come back to emotions.
The reason why you are in pain is due to the emotional conflict with your mind. It will attempt to distract you from completing your task. As you focus on the pain you will need to open up to the emotions that may be there, or, linking there from your lower abdomen.
Most of us learned when young to tighten our belly muscles when emotionally stressed, and this became our default position, so, as you connect with your physical pain and open to your underlying emotions, remember to support yourself by relaxing your tummy muscles down to your lower abdomen. This in turn will allow you to breathe fully and deeply and more easily connect with any emotions that may arise.
Emotions like rain can overwhelm us
Lastly, emotions are like rain, and tensions are like a large rainwater butt We are so used to suppressing emotions that we are unaware until the water butt is about half full, and a large % of the population live their lives with a water butt at least ¾ full! – That’s a lot of emotional/ physical tension under the bonnet!
Practice the meditation assiduously, and keep going until you have emptied that water butt which of itself could take a few years Remember you may have many sunny days but the rain is sure to come, so keep the rainwater butt as empty as possible.
Meditational exercise – how to relieve pain and tensions
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Bonus section for headaches
Here is some bonus information that I have not included in the meditation
Headaches tend to be the result of fascia and structural misalignment/ attempted re-alignment (by fascia) of the cranial bones. you can apply the above meditation to headaches by adding the following:
Lie down and focus on the pain/ache sensations on your head, and permit yourself to connect with any underlying emotions that will be based in your lower abdomen.
When you are satisfied that you are accepting of your physical pain and relaxed, stay intently focussed on the center of the discomfort, take a deep breath, and hold it for as long as you can, whilst simultaneously, with your legs straight, stretch your feet so that both feet are pulling and stretching towards your head. You may wish to repeat this action a few times.
This action has the purpose of stretching the Dura matter that runs up your spine and separates your cranial bones enough to allow a re-alignment if that is what is required.
Do you ever wonder as to who you are? Do you have a sense of yourself in your day-to-day existence? Or are you pulled by external forces? If you were to ask yourself now, this second. Who am I? You might get an internal verbal response or an absence of words. What if I asked, “Where are you?” “Where is the centre of your sense of self in your body?”
By the end of this article, I will offer a quick active meditation to either give you a taste or, improve your connection, but for now..
Why not pause, contemplate and write down your answers so far?
What comes to mind when I ask: “Who are you?”
Do you define yourself by job? Physical presence, emotional states, mental ideas?
“Do you ever look inside yourself?” If so, “do you contemplate what drives, and motivates you?” “Are you familiar with loneliness?” “Being misunderstood?” “Do you fear the power others seem to have over you?” “Are you desperate to belong?” “To be loved, acknowledged, appreciated?”
“Have you ever explored the deep grief, anger, and fear that lurks in the recesses of most people’s subconscious? Are you afraid to look? Is it too painful?”
If you relate to any of the above, you will appreciate humanity’s obsession with distraction from self, which in modern times we have become masters of. We all seek it. It is all right, no judgement from me. But we don’t want to throw the baby out with the bath water.
We do need to be aware that our obsession with distraction is an addiction to the fractured ego. And, there are many unscrupulous forces on this Earth that in the pursuit of power, wealth and influence over your psyche would enslave your fragmented ego with a million and one distractions whilst pumping into your brain all manner of indoctrinating perceptions and pseudo values.
Most people when asked where do you experience the world from? Will say “in their heads”. Some will say in their bodies. And if you look through your memories of people, you will see that some are physically awkward (in their heads). Whilst others are very graceful (in their bodies)
No one can bear much pain – be it physical, mental or emotional.
Disassociated from self
Those overwhelmed by physical pain vacate their consciousness to their minds and disassociate from their bodies. Those overwhelmed by emotional pain will deaden themselves to emotion. A sense of madness can arise when we have disconnected from both – body and emotions, as we battle with a painful reality we can’t accept.
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And now a word from my spiritual sponsors or shouldI say the Soul Dimension
Have you ever felt that there was more to you? That there is more to life than we are told?
Well….YOU ARE RIGHT!!
Ever felt the urge to read sacred or spiritual books, sit at the feet of the Master, or bigger than life Guru to gain a leg up the spiritual rung? WELL……SNAP OUT OF IT!!! WAKE UP !!
The answers are ALL inside YOU.
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OK…. The soul Dimension can be a bit harsh with the truth. So, coming back to the theme of this article, Who am I?
Am I my thoughts, emotions, my body, or a combination of them all?
Most people will identify with their thoughts, the continuous chatter that goes on in our heads like a broken record.
If that applies to you, ask yourself, “Why am I not fully in my body?” After all, I have thousands of nerve endings to all my muscles and internal organs, as well as to my skin and five senses.. I also have the facia that surrounds and permeates the whole of me, connecting directly with my brain to among other things give me postural information.
Let’s do a little experiment, do you think that you could move into your body right now?
Pause and try this exercise, Could you sense your left foot and the individual toes one by one? I would like you to note the difference between direct sensing, and imagining that you are sensing your toes.
When I do it, my mind likes to put its two pence in by counting the digits. I don’t fight my mind, but my focus is firmly on the physical sensations of my toes. When I focus and sense the toes individually, my mind goes very quiet, yet waiting for an opportunity to be relevant.
So what gets in the way of our being in the body all the time? It is a combination of unprocessed emotions and a mind trying to protect us from the potential emotional intensity of such emotions. There is a price to be paid for this, for emotions like water need to flow.
When we stop the emotional flow, muscles go into spasms, we are distracted and lose our connection to the physical discomfort by identifying with the words in our heads. After a while, being lost in the words in our heads is the norm. There is more to this, but for now, it is enough to just get a taste of this truth.
So who I am, and my self-awareness are linked. And If I am lost in the words in my head, my sense of self is a mirage. For the words will act as a filter to interpret my reality – and my experiences are second-hand, corrupted, biased, interpreted, and the source of all conflicts with others.
Find your Heart at the end of the rainbow
In most esoteric traditions, they speak about a state of being which is tied to enlightenment. This implies being in one’s body, in one’s emotional centre, present in the moment. There are famous teachers/ gurus who read a lot of esoteric books. And didn’t quite get it. It is quite possible to be in our bodies, with semi-flowing emotions and an iron will to keep one focused. – but this is far from the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow
For example Krishnamurti:
“Enlightenment is not a state of mind; it is a state of being. Enlightenment is not a feeling; it is the absence of feelings“.
Enlightenment has many gradients, and “Being-ness” is one of them, This place where all three centres are working in unison, is still the realm of ego. To be clear, ego is important and needs to be nurtured by us, but who we truly are is to be found in a place beyond ego.
The road to enlightenment requires us to appreciate, acknowledge, nurture and love our damaged ego, so that it may become solid and secure enough to let go of the reins and be a subservient servant to the source of who we truly are.
If you have practised the above exercise and found it relatively easy to do, let me add the following to be practised anywhere, whether alone or in company
We are electric beings continually generating an electrical output through our emotional/nervous system, whilst this electromagnetic expression around our bodies is constant it can be interfered with by emotional/mental suppression. This can be experienced Kinaesthetically. This electromagnetic sensation can be moved around/ through the body, a lack of which is a symptom of illness.
The exercise is to kinaesthetically focus on your head, you can imagine a pair of hands, breathe into your head and the immediate surrounding space then with the out-breath bring the imaginary hands down to your heart and sense carrying that plasma-like energy down with you.
Next, go down to your lower abdomen and repeat – this time breathe into your lower abdomen sense the emotional energy and with the out-breath using your kinaesthetic imaginary hands raise the energy to your heart area.
The out-breath is to be slower than your in-breath, by roughly twice as long and each time, pause for a second or two to taste the emotional sense in your lower abdomen, as well as the feeling in your heart. Repeat as many times as it takes to feel your centre of gravity, awareness and expression firmly seated in your heart.
I have been asked by ~Charley (a 12th-dimensional soul) that I channel, to write on this subject. Enlightenment is a word I have come across numerous times over the past 40 years in my search for meaning and purpose on this Earth.
In many ways, it has seemed shrouded in mystery to me, and even now, I’m unsure if I fully understand it. I’ve sought others’ understanding and read quotes from well-known figures.
Buddha:
“Enlightenment is not imagining figures of light, but making the darkness conscious.”- Perhaps, he refers to our subconsciously fragmented psyche, describing part of the landscape.
Krishnamurti:
“Enlightenment is not a state of mind; it is a state of being. Enlightenment is not a feeling; it is the absence of feelings“. Being-ness is indispensable, and I’ll delve into it later. But stating that enlightenment is the absence of feelings is too cerebral; I strongly disagree.
There is a great deal of confusion between feelings and emotions with most of humanity, it is important to understand the difference so that we may add flesh to the bones of our emerging understanding.
Deepak Chopra:
“Enlightenment is the experience of infinite intelligence, infinite creativity, infinite love, and infinite bliss.”
Err, sorry Deepack, relying on books, not personal experience, weakens the message.
Eckhart Tolle:
“Enlightenment is not about becoming divine. Instead, it’s about becoming more fully human.”
Yes, Eckart! I couldn’t agree more, BUT, what is the process that will allow us to become more fully human? and what does it mean to be more fully human anyway?
If you read with me we will explore the ego -composed of the physical body, emotions, and the mind that holds us back and our journey to the heart and feelings. For to be in our hearts is to be not just in a state of beingness, but in active connection with our egos.
Enlightenment is not a black-and-white event it is an expanding progression of integration and awareness within our hearts that leaves nothing behind in its wake – not even our egos.
What is enlightenment?
~Charley wishes me to make clear that enlightenment is not a black-and-white state, and that there are many gradations. Whilst by itself it is meant to be descriptive. We use it as a judgemental word whereby we see/ experience ourselves as being less than another, (who allegedly has it).
At one level, we are all equal, as in we are all vehicles for a soul fragment that experiences with us. What separates us as human beings is the facility by which the soul fragment blended with us can communicate its purpose and the degree to which the vehicle can respond.
I have listened to some modern-day ‘gurus’ who speak with a great deal of gravitas, and what appears to be a deep well of knowledge. But then I notice their breathing into their upper chest, referring to ‘I’ as in ‘I am’ this, that, or the other as the constant in their life, confusing and conflating emotions with feelings, and proclaiming that enlightenment is a state of being synonymous with this ‘I’, for enlightenment is not an object to be acquired.
There appears to be a fallacy amongst many individuals that knowledge, i.e. the study of esoteric material be it Western or Eastern, of itself can/will lead to enlightenment. This is a trap that trips many a seeker of ‘Truth’.
The physical – genetic DNA, and repetitive physical actions,
The emotions hormonal system – by responses to our sensations. Do they generate fear or inclusivity and companionship?
The mind –The observer of our emotional intensity and protector of our survival.
Our mental computer can and is programmed by others from infancy and by ourselves. In reaction to our environment.
When all three brains/centres are working in tandem because we are connected with our bodies and emotions, with our minds attentive to both, we can experience the reality of “I exist”, at such times we can navigate the world relative to others with confidence.
Up to this point, we are merely self-aware machines. It is distressing to say that the majority of humanity has fleeting moments of this self-awareness. Why? Because our cultural programming is designed to keep us psychologically fractured, emotionally suppressed, subservient, and non-questioning.
The role of the ego, emotions, and breathing
The quest for the dissolution of the ego appears to play a central role in the quest for enlightenment. This is very much a spillover from the Hindu cult and worship of gurus.
But what is ego? If not, the totality of what should be a well-run machine? And therein lies the problem. We seek enlightenment because we are in pain/distress in our thoughts, our emotions, and even our bodies.
Most of us carry a whole baggage of suppressed emotions, accumulated through our formative years via the interactions of family, school, peers, and society, all kept in place by various flavours of fear. It is the job of our indoctrinated minds to keep our emotions that have the potential to destabilise our integrity with their intensity well and truly under lock and key.
What is madness if not repressed emotions kept at bay with words in our heads?
Little do we realize the price we pay for such conformity! Our emotions are the source of our energy in life (hormonal activity). And whenever we are triggered into expressing, even a shadow of those emotions we have so successfully suppressed in ourselves, our minds come to the fore with words to distract us from connecting with that potential emotional intensity.
We then get confused and identify with the word in our heads as though we are the words. In the process, disconnect from our emotions and or bodies.
Creativity is much sought after but requires allowing our imagination free rein –even to imagine the unthinkable. We are so constrained by our indoctrination, that we even self-censor the images in our heads!
To make matters worse, the only way the mind can suppress emotions apart from drowning our thinking with meaningless words, is via muscle tension, when we are overcome with intense emotions our breathing accelerates, hormones are released to prepare our muscles, internal organs, and immune system for fight-flight responses.
The mind interferes by contracting the abdominal muscles, which places the internal organs into a semi-stasis state, the diaphragm struggles to expand downwards, and the human is forced to breathe from the upper chest.
The lower abdomen has traditionally been recognized as the seat of emotions, In Daoism they perceive the lower abdomen as the hub of a wheel from which a connection is made like spokes radiating out to all parts of the body At this moment I can’t truly give a concise theory as to why it is, or should be the seat of emotions, but experientially I can categorically state that it is.
Other areas in the body can also go into muscle spasms. Commonly the piriformis in the hips/gluts, back muscles, and neck muscles, seem to be the most common ones.
This is why as long as we are trapped in the unnatural breathing pattern that isolates us from the second chakra, we will still have major emotional blocks interfering with progressing towards the relative enlightenment of, firstly “I am”- connected with all 3 centres, and secondly experiencing the serenity of being a unified organism in one’s heart (4th chakra).
Conversely, breathing into our lower abdomen by default does not make us more enlightened than others – we still have to clear the emotional blockages, but, it does increase our resources and support to fully experience our suppressed emotional pains.
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The Quest forEnlightenment
ALL human beings trapped by deeply unresolved emotions and belief systems that subjugate them are by default fearful, needy, and insecure, they will experience themselves as victims and invariably guilt-ridden. In such a place, there is no “I am” except for fleeting moments here and there. The mental-emotional conflict that gives rise to such ways of being in the world we typically refer to as an ego, so no wonder we want to get rid of it!
Let me share a true measure and description of the holy grail we have labelled enlightenment.
Enlightenment is a road our ego travels divesting itself, of mental limiting programmes, whilst releasing its stranglehold on our emotions. This is a journey that begins by re-owning our humanity as we allow ourselves to experience emotional intensity.
Emotional intensity is our capacity to experience greater, intense emotions (without blowing a fuse). People confuse the experience of emotions with reactive emotions, the explosiveness of which we fear and, (our minds) must keep in check. It reminds me of the old coal/wood powered locomotives with a steam whistle/ safety valve to release the pressure if/ when it went too high
At the end of the day when all is said and done. True enlightenment is where we are one in our hearts, so yes anyone can be enlightened, Ok ~Charley disagrees! He says “There are many young souls on this Earth at the moment who are too traumatized and inexperienced to separate their emotions from their minds”.
And you who read this are, perhaps, not enlightened enough just yet, as you work to free yourselves of your deep grief and anguish. You don’t need to go to a charlatan who offers you the mystique of the supernatural. We all have moments when all our three brains are aligned, connected, and our feelings flow in our hearts.
But that moment is soon gone, swallowed by our fears, anxieties, deep out-of-awareness needs, and subconscious iron chains that stop us from deviating from set belief systems which keep in check our deepest hurts.
A map on the road to greater enlightenment
Ok, So I am connected to the supernatural Oops! 🙂 And yes, you don’t need to come to someone like me. ~Charley, the 12th-dimensional soul of the one Soul, shared with me some years back a chart of our possible ascension towards enlightenment, that place within our psyche where we can dwell more and more regularly, namely – Our hearts.
So far in this article, I have spoken of a human as a machine and to speak of ‘me’ (fragmented ego) or ‘I’ (unified ego) is to acknowledge this possibly clever, and maybe self-aware – machine). I speak of ‘soul’ because if we are machines then who is driving the vehicle? Many think of themselves as having free will and autonomy. Here is an article to state otherwise. Do human beings possess free will?
To the degree that the highway to our heart/soul is obstructed by our fears, hurts, and sense of being a victim, or self-limiting mental control, we disconnect from our hearts and we don’t hear the messages /prompts from our soul fragments.
Do you want to be enlightened? Forget books and gurus you are more than likely already partially enlightened The rest of your journey has to be experiential and for this to succeed you need to release your emotional traumas and loosen the reins of your belief systems
At a physical level- ask yourself where is the centre of my being? Wherever it is at present you want to end up experiencing the world from your heart. When we were born we began our journey through life in our hearts. Unfortunately, we live in a dystopian emotionally repressed and mentally controlled world. To protect our hearts our centre of gravity like a balloon gradually rose to our heads.
We need to integrate our 3 centres
The physical -Learn to breathe properly. Practice being in your body, when going for a walk be aware of how your feet grab the ground and propel yourself forward from the balls of your feet to your toes let there be a little spring to your step. you can practice your breathing as you walk too. Focus on the expansion of your lower ribs and the relaxation and outward movements of your abdominal muscles with your breath.
Become familiar with this active meditation to connect with and release physical tension from your body.
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Next time you have an accident and hurt your body, however slightly, pause and contemplate that ‘you’ have done this to yourself. Feel tenderness for your body and the location of the pain, don’t distract yourself, give your pain ALL of your focus, tell your body, “I am sorry” and mean it!
The emotional – open yourself up to emotional intensity, listen to some classical music, sit by a stream and lose yourself in its gurgling, stare at the flames of a log fire, lie back and gaze at the clouds, watch ‘weepy’ films that will facilitate emotional experiences. Gaze deeply at your eyes in a mirror for 5 minutes regularly until you are emotionally spent.
When you have successfully connected or been triggered into an emotion – revel in it! Where are the sensations in your body? What is the tension like? What does this emotion bring up from your past? Is it a recurring emotion? BE curious. Magnify all the sensations ‘in your body’, cry with passion don’t hold back! Let emotional pain grow to a crescendo inside you and express it in your body. Let the tears flow and the nostrils run – let yourself be messy! Learn to enjoy the release of emotional intensity.
***Caveat, emotions that are not fully experienced in the body can re-traumatize us.***
**Nohalf-measures, go the whole hog!**
The mind- are you a know-it-all all? Are you continually judging others by their clothes, the way they speak, and their education? Notice your bias. Question the words in your head. Learn to realise YOU are NOT the words in your head. Are you a LIAR? do you lie to yourself? others? Promise yourself you will from this moment forward be 100% truthful with yourself and 95% with others. It’s okay to have a little wiggle room when it comes to another’s ego.
No more self-criticism! there is already plenty of that in the world. From this day forth notice when you judge yourself or others, does it remind you of someone in your past that criticised or put you down? If there is something truly unacceptable about you then experience regret for your thoughts, reactive response or actions.
When you have had an altercation with another, your emotional feathers may have been ruffled, you may feel like a victim, unfairly accused, unable to express your viewpoint. You walk away and your mind is going ten to the dozen, as you replay the scene in your head you might have said this, that, or the other in your defence, or you might want to vent your anger and imagine a different scenario. It can be so exhausting! Then you can’t sleep because the thoughts keep going round and round!
I imagine very few if any have not had that experience. The answer lies in our emotions. Ask yourself, what was the emotion? do your best to capture and experience the emotion in your body. This might be a struggle because the emotion was more than likely intense and your mind is trying to protect and diffuse the emotional intensity with a barrage of never-ending words. In such a state, it is very difficult to be detached from the mind and yet you must! (move into your body) practice makes perfect. The chances are that the emotion is a familiar one, allow yourselves to remember other moments from earlier days in your life.
Remember the Heart
Hopefully, you will work on all the above but there is one important piece of the jigsaw puzzle still missing – the heart.
The heart is the glue that keeps our three centres communicating with each other, and yes, it needs to be the centre of gravity that defines us as human beings. But how to get there?
All the human attributes, of love, kindness compassion, and appreciation, emanate from the fountain of our hearts. Let’s begin with kindness, not for others but for ourselves.
Gazing deeply into oneself in a mirror
I gave the example of looking at a mirror before. Try it now, gaze and drink deep from yourself. Be aware of how damaged you are, emotionally, psychologically, and perhaps even physically, gaze deeply, and allow yourself to feel kindness for the broken human ego that you are. Open your heart and surround this damaged ego with your warmth, appreciation and acceptance. All it has ever wanted was to be loved and to love another.
Is there a special someone in your life? You may not be ready for this yet in which case there may not be, but as you work on opening your heart the right person/animal will be there. Every night before going to sleep give this person or animal 5 minutes of your focused feeling, remind yourself of the laughter you have shared, and your joy in the way your partner/animal navigates his/her way through life. Remind yourself and savour the felt connection of understanding and safety at the way you can express yourself and be you without judgment.
Remember, to get to the heart you have to let your body and emotions express themselves. So practice like crazy at accepting and experiencing your body and emotional dimensions.
Quite a few people get seduced by the cult of the Hindu guru, tantra and sexual control, as well as the chakras- Kundalini, and some weird belief about gaining spiritual powers, and or going beyond ego. I will be writing an article devoted to the subject but for now, let me express that the only path to real enlightenment is the one I have shared here in this article.
Amidst numerous interpretations surrounding the concept of enlightenment, the genuine path unfolds as we forge a deeper connection with the soul within. Achieving this requires a comprehensive integration of all our centres and facets of the ego. It beckons us to become our own best friends and shower ourselves with unwavering self-love.
Progress becomes evident when we embrace the simple truth that none of us are or ever will be inherently special, regardless of how far we have travelled.
